My blood is covered in alcohol and I don’t know what I’m really thinking about. I’d like to say I’m doing well with getting over you, but I know that’s not true. I think you and I both know it’s not over for whatever reason. But the thing is, I’m not waiting for you, but if things happen, I don’t think I’ll say no. I still want you but not as we were before, but something greater. If that’s impossible, then that’s okay. But if it’s not, then we can say that we conquered everything. Hope is the only thing relevant and saying that having hope is what leads to this thing called love, then hope will be something new I trust myself in. You’re a better person than me, you, or anyone else really knows you as. I just hope you discover that sooner than later. It’s necessary for things to become better between us. I just don’t even know what’s worth it and what’s not. It’s confusing and I wish I knew. It’s scary looking out for something new that might not be better. I just hope I can get through whatever this is.
I do know one thing tho, it’s that I miss you. A lot. And I really was looking forward to spending the summer together. Guess I just gotta keep gathering my thoughts and push forward. Glad to have friends and have the time spent with them so near to when this happened. Makes me feel much better. It’s gonna suck when that’s gone tho. Hmmm.
Well, it happened yesterday and I definitely wasn’t expecting that at all. And honestly, I agree with her in a lot of ways as to why we decided to break it off and all that, but I did not want to end it at all. Yeah, she wasn’t the greatest girlfriend most of the time, but I could tell she was trying and it was difficult for her. But given the situation, I understood why and I wanted to be patient and wait it out because I know she could be a great girlfriend. And the thing is, why would I stay with someone who I admit doesn’t treat me right? Well, she’s one of the best friends I could have and everything about her personality made me want to be with her. She was a great person and I had a blast hanging with her every single time we hung out. It was great and why wouldn’t you want to have a relationship with someone like that? So if she would’ve been a better girlfriend, would it have been the right thing? Yeah, I think so. But for now, I think I just need to move on and look forward and get my shit together. It’ll take me awhile and I’ll be bummed as hell, but I just gotta do it. Ugh, oh well.
That was Jake’s favorite cup. One of his favorite possessions and he throws it out the window to help teach Finn something important about life that we all need to learn: To stop worrying about small things.
Yeah, he does go get it later, but he had no way of knowing that the cup wouldn’t break. For all he knew, it really was gone forever. And he was okay with that, because it would help him teach Finn something he needs to know.
